I mentioned in my last post that my grandpa was pretty sick. Thank you to everyone who sent me well wishes and kept us in your prayers. I really appreciate it since life has been pretty difficult for the past week since most of my time has been dedicated to helping my Grandma take care of him. My son, who is 10, is a mess. He is worried that Grandpa is going to die and doesn't really want to let go.
Just a little update on Grandpa: Grandpa entered hospice care last week and told my Grandma said that he wanted to be at home when his time came so she is honoring those wishes. He is not expected to live much longer but is slowly declining. I think he is holding on for Grandma but I have already told him not to worry about her and that I will take good care of her for him. For the past week, my schedule had been to get off of work and head over to her house and stay as last as I possibly can. After work, I head back over there again. Grandma calls me numerous times during the middle of the night to ask me questions or to fill me in on something new that may be going on with him and sometimes I have to head back over to her house. Thank God she lives 10 minutes away from me. It has been hard for me to get up at my normal time and I am pretty used to getting up at 4:30 a.m for work.
I wasn't planning on running a holiday race once my grandpa became so ill but my Ragnar buddies convinced me to run the Holiday Half Marathon with them so get my mind off of things.
I ran this same race for fun last year with my friend Shawna and considered it my fun run for the year. If my Grandpa is not in a bad state in the morning, I will be there. If I think that he may pass or needs me, I will not. I think it will be good for me mentally but physically not so much. I am very tired and the longest distance I have ran to lately is 11 miles.
This will be a fun race and I don't care about the time to be 110% honest. One of the girls that I will be running with is shooting for a sub-two half marathon. My friend Maura and I will attempt to pace her to that PR. I am not sure if I have that in me, so I will drop behind if I cannot keep up. I honestly don't need another ounce of stress in my life right now and any kind of goal just stresses me out.
Anybody else running a holiday race tomorrow? If you are, good luck!
So I will be out there tomorrow if it Grandpa lets me, if not I will be by his side.
