Saying Goodbye is Never Easy

Last night we said goodbye to Grandpa. He passed away peacefully with all of us by his side. My Grandpa was a very proud man and was really unhappy with his life once the Parkinson's disease became so progressive. He was unable to do all of things that he wanted to do physically but mentally he was longing to do so much.

Grandma honored all of his wishes and was relieved to see him released from all of the pain and suffering that she had seen him going through for the past year. We knew it was his time when his breathing became very shallow and his breaths were far apart. When it was time, I called my Grandma to be by his side. She told him that she loved him and wanted him to go rest and she would be there to meet him one day.  It was at that moment that Grandpa took his very last breath. We will always love him and always remember him. He had a heart of gold and was always there for me and my family. I am so lucky to have had such a wonderful Grandpa in my life.

My son is taking it very hard. It is his, as well as my own, first experience with the death of a close relative. My son thinks that we made a mistake and that Grandpa is still alive.  He wants to go to the funeral home to check on him to make sure that he is not still breathing. It is hard to see my son like this but we continue to remind him of how much Grandpa loved him and how he will always be with us and we will see him again someday. We also remind him that Grandpa is now resting and is happy and pain free. He finds some comfort in knowing this.

We are waiting for some families member to arrive from out of state and will lay him to rest early next week. Please pray for my family as we say goodbye to him. It will be one of the hardest things that I have ever had to do but I know that I have to stay strong for my Grandma.

I love you Grandpa and I miss you so much!