I mentioned in my last post that my grandpa was pretty sick. Thank you to everyone who sent me well wishes and kept us in your prayers. I really appreciate it since life has been pretty difficult for the past week since most of my time has been dedicated to helping my Grandma take care of him. My son, who is 10, is a mess. He is worried that Grandpa is going to die and doesn't really want to let go.
Just a little update on Grandpa: Grandpa entered hospice care last week and told my Grandma said that he wanted to be at home when his time came so she is honoring those wishes. He is not expected to live much longer but is slowly declining. I think he is holding on for Grandma but I have already told him not to worry about her and that I will take good care of her for him. For the past week, my schedule had been to get off of work and head over to her house and stay as last as I possibly can. After work, I head back over there again. Grandma calls me numerous times during the middle of the night to ask me questions or to fill me in on something new that may be going on with him and sometimes I have to head back over to her house. Thank God she lives 10 minutes away from me. It has been hard for me to get up at my normal time and I am pretty used to getting up at 4:30 a.m for work.
I wasn't planning on running a holiday race once my grandpa became so ill but my Ragnar buddies convinced me to run the Holiday Half Marathon with them so get my mind off of things.
I ran this same race for fun last year with my friend Shawna and considered it my fun run for the year. If my Grandpa is not in a bad state in the morning, I will be there. If I think that he may pass or needs me, I will not. I think it will be good for me mentally but physically not so much. I am very tired and the longest distance I have ran to lately is 11 miles.
This will be a fun race and I don't care about the time to be 110% honest. One of the girls that I will be running with is shooting for a sub-two half marathon. My friend Maura and I will attempt to pace her to that PR. I am not sure if I have that in me, so I will drop behind if I cannot keep up. I honestly don't need another ounce of stress in my life right now and any kind of goal just stresses me out.
Anybody else running a holiday race tomorrow? If you are, good luck!
So I will be out there tomorrow if it Grandpa lets me, if not I will be by his side.
That was good of you to tell your grandpa to not worry that you will take care of your grandma.
ReplyDeleteEnjoy the time you have left together and take pictures with your grandpa and son. When your son gets older he's going to want to look back and reminisce. -Take care and good luck on that half marathon :)
Thank You Lisa. My son doesn't really understand it completely but we are trying to help him through it.
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ReplyDeletealso since I have experience with this he may not want to go with grandma in the room or with you there.
Lot's of peace for our family and your son.
You may be right. He is fighting to stay with us and we are hoping that he will find the peace that he needs. Thank you for sharing your thoughts.
DeleteI'm so sorry about your Grandpa. But so happy you have friends who give you good advice. Running is always a celebration of health, fitness...life. So even though you're exhausted, its probably the best thing you can do to stay strong.
ReplyDeleteI know a lot could've happened since your post, but I'm wishing you, your Grandpa/Grandma & whole family peace during this difficult time.
Thank you for the kind thoughts Lisa. He is still with us and fighting for every minute of his life. Running definitely gives me some peace and some time to myself to think. I am thankful that I have all of you people and my running to help me pull through this.
DeleteOh I wish there was a holiday half marathon here in Charlotte. But I am running a holiday 5k next weekend so I am looking forward to that.
ReplyDeleteThe holiday half was really fun! Good luck on your 5K!
DeleteThinking of you and your Grandpa! Hope you get to run for your sanity, but I also know how much it means to be by your grandparents' side.
ReplyDeleteHugs, love and prayers!
Thank you Megan! It was a tough choice to run this weekend but it did me some good.
DeleteStill thinking of you guys and saying a special prayer for your Grandpa! Hope you are able to run this race with your friends and take your mind off things for a few hours.
ReplyDeleteThank you Suzanne for your prayers. I did get to run the Holiday Half and Grandpa hung in there for me.
DeleteSorry about your grandpa...Enjoy your run today!!
ReplyDeleteI am thankful that I was able to run it and even more grateful that Grandpa waited for me to get back home.
DeleteHaving lost my granpa in '07, and my gram just last year-I can relate...please let me know if you need a shoulder. xoxo
ReplyDeleteOh Michelle that is a lot to handle in such a short period of time. I am worried about my grandam too. They have been married for over 50 years and are always together. She is staying strong right now but I plan to keep her mind busy and take her to come and stay with me. Thank you for your support.
DeleteSorry to hear about your Grandpa. Both of my grandfathers died at home with hospice care. It was nice that they could be at home and not in same strange place for them. Hugs. It has been nearly 9 and 6 years since they passed and I miss them both still so much.
ReplyDeleteHope you had a great run!
Grandpa requested to be at home so we honored his wishes. It is not an easy thing to go through and it very tough to witness. I am sure you miss your grandpas very much :(
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