My Weekly Update 9/2/13-9/8/13 (A VERY, VERY TOUGH WEEK!!!)

I had one of the toughest weeks I have had in a long time. Running was not the tough part but the events that conspired that interrupted my life and caused my mind to be in another place made it hard to think about anything else. A running buddy of mine lost her husband on September 5th. He took his own life and gave no real explanation as to why. Witnessing a mother tell her son that his father was gone was the most devastating thing I have ever witnessed in my life. I will never forgot that moment that felt like forever.

I had dinner with the family the night before and he was himself. He was fine. I played UNO with him and his family. He talked about events in the future. I left their house at 8:00 pm. He gave me a hug and that is my last memory of him. I am glad I went to their house and spent that last moment with him. 

He left a lot of people wondering why. He left his wife and child with lots of unanswered questions and a lot of pain. I am lost for words and don't really know how to comfort my friend right now because she is so angry and hurt. She tells me everyday that she hopes that this is nothing but a bad dream. I wish he would have asked for help. I wish he would have shown us a sign. I wish he would have thought of his family and changed his mind. I wish I would have picked up on something when I saw him the night before!

I have known this family about three years and although running brought on our friendship,  I think there was a real reason that I was brought into her life. She is going to need me now since her family is not close by.

So how did my week go....
To put it mildly,my week sucked! I was unmotivated, sad and didn't even do any cross training. It was my birthday and although I tried to be happy it was hard. Another mutual friend of ours got married on my birthday and it made the days before her wedding very hard for her. I finally had to tell her that she needed to step away and focus on her wedding. I could not watch her ruin her special day.

Monday: REST DAY

Tuesday: 6.7 Miles on the treadmill @9:06 pace

Wednesday: REST DAY

Thursday: UNEXPECTED REST DAY

Friday: 6.14 Miles@8:11

Saturday:  MY BIRTHDAY! Went to a friend's wedding. She looked beautiful!

Sunday: UNMOTIVATED!!

Total Miles: 12.84 Miles

I need to get back on track this week. I really do but my friend will remain my priority and if I have another low mileage week so be it. My family and my friends come first!

Please pray for this family. They are hurting beyond what you can imagine. An 11-year old boy has been left without a father. My friend has been left without a husband and lots of unanswered questions!